All We Have Is Now

St. Martin’s Press, June 2002
ISBN 0-312-28481-0

Ian McBride, a principal in a prominent repertory theater company, erected an emotional wall after his longtime lover died of AIDS. But during rehearsals for The Tempest, Jimmy Davidson, the actor playing Ariel, begins to chip away at Ian’s walls. After twelve years alone, Ian finds himself once again deeply and happily in love. Despite the usual bumps of any relationship, Ian and Jimmy begin to slowly weave their lives together.

But during a visit to his family’s home in Kimberley, Texas, Jimmy is savagely murdered in a bias attack. Wanting revenge and needing the solace and closure he never found after his first lover’s death, Ian goes to Kimberley for Jimmy’s funeral and the trial. Buffeted by the media that have descended to cover this sensational case, and regarded with suspicion and distaste by the town and by Jimmy’s equally bereft parents, Ian is isolated and alone with his rage, sadness, and loss. That is, until he finds an unlikely ally in the person of Jimmy’s beloved grandmother, Livie, a woman of great compassion and emotional fire, and with a secret history of her own.

All We Have Is Now is a moving and powerful novel of love and loss, of hate and understanding, of grief and resolution.


“A heartfelt story of love, loss, and the power of redemption. Robert Taylor reminds us that hope lives despite tragedy, and that love recognizes no boundaries – not age, not circumstances, not even death.”

– William J. Mann, author of The Men From the Boys and Where the Boys Are

“Robert Taylor has written a unique book. Inspired by a famous murder case and trial, All We Have Is Now is not only very suspenseful – at times riveting – but finally, it made me cry.”

– David Leddick, author of My Worst Date and Intimate Companions

“This book leaps to life . . . . As he did in his earlier novel, The Innocent, Taylor pulls the various strands of this story together with consummate skill.”

– H. R. Coursen, author of Shakespeare in Space: Recent Shakespeare Productions on Screen

“Taylor tells his story freshly, with directness and clarity. He has something important to say about life experiences, global and personal, and he says it powerfully.”

Maine Sunday Telegram on The Innocent

“Fascinating . . . Taylor keeps always within view of the reader the contrast between the stunning natural beauty of the exotic terrain and the terrible devastation being wreaked upon it in the name of freedom. A simple theme but Taylor makes it work to powerful effect.”

Hartford Advocate on The Innocent